I realise 12 years is a long time, so most evidence is out the window.
When i was 6, i was repeatedly sexually, mentally and physically abused by my teacher.

I cannot forgive myself for not speaking sooner, not knowing if he went on to abuse others under his authority, when i could have spoke out years ago. But I’m going to have to live with that guilt for the rest of my life.

Some physical and mental abuse was witnessed by others in my class. Mainly him grabbing, hitting, throwing me about like a rag-doll, he would also often do things like making me stand on a chair with my hands on my head, often waiting for me to submit to the pain in my arms so he could throw me from the classroom.

He’d bully me anyway he could to humiliate me. He’d threaten me, make me drink loads of liquids throughout the day, then refuse to allow me to go to the toilet, In PE he’d torture my fear of heights,making me climb to the top of a metal frame in the hall, then removing all support beams. Often leaving me there for the full duration of the lesson petrified and sobbing my eyes out. On two or three occasions he locked me in a cupboard in complete darkness until home time.

I was a constant victim of his torture for over a year, i haven’t mentioned all of the abuse here for obvious reasons, i’ve only really mentioned things that others may have witnessed.
It was all enough to pretty much ruin my life, I’m 18 now and it’s still effecting me, everything i do or have ever done has been tainted by this shameful massive secret i’ve kept bottled up for 12 years.

The question i want to know is, what are the chances of getting any kind of justice now, after 12 years? Before i know, he could be dead. He was relatively young when i remember him, he’s possibly around 40 now, so maybe he isn’t.
Even if i unveiled all of this, the chances of getting any sense of closure is pretty minimal, and i’ll most likely hurt myself and family more than anyone in the process
I don’t even know what i’m trying to achieve here?