IN TEARS, WHAT SHOULD I DO?
I’m 31 yrs old currently 34 wks pregnant with my 2nd (a girl). I’ve been going thru SO MUCH stress, drama, emotional pain etc. for the past few months. Her father (age 39) is angry bc I chose to cont. the pregnancy so he’s refused to talk to me or help buy any of her things. I guess he plan on communicating when she arrives.
His friend & my sis (2 middle-men) are discreetly seeing each other and the father/ friend are really close. My sister & I used to be close also (at least I thought) but she’s been a complete untrustworthy backstabber who cares NOTHING about me. I’ve decided to remove all relatives & others out of my life permanently. However, since the father won’t talk to me I have to get info thru the middle-men. Last week the middle-men talked and refuse to tell me the new info that they know. After asking (her) repeatedly it was said, “You’ll find out what it is.” How could she do this knowing how much he means to me? I didn’t know anything til going online where the confirmation was seen for myself. The posted info was that he was moving out of town and showed only his name but no location. My instincts prior on the location was 100%. After visiting another website that he/ I are on as friends I saw for myself the information of his new residental location. From that moment on I cried uncontrollably in shock more so bc of the distance (Midwest to far East Coast). IDK what’s going to happen: she’ll be born soon in 6 wks, he’s bout to relocate, will he fly back to see her thruout her life?, I don’t have all of her things, it’s just so hard for me right now.
He traveled to my city all the time (a 2hr drive or so about 100 miles); I won’t be able to see or sex him anymore or have him spend nights at my house. I’m lost without answers I’m missing him terribly. I love & care so much about him. As the tears flow while I write this she responds to my cries with gentle kicks letting me know its okay; I rub my stomach smiling down at her. I don’t know what to do. I’m all alone with no support system (I just want my 2 kids) bc they’re my molding glue. I don’t fly bc of fear for heights so I’m NOT flying her out there to see him. If I’m not wrong (from what my instincts says) I believe he’s moving in with his good (female) ‘friend’. It was only a sexual thing between us for a year & a half after meeting online but with me becoming pregnant his friend said that this has ruined our friendship. In spite of it all, I forgive him as he also is to blame and feel that nothing else is more important than our unborn daughter.
WHAT SHOULD I DO? (can’t stop crying or thinking of him) Thanks.
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